Midnight Musings - Walking Dust

I woke up...

I dont know where I was.

I started looking around me.

I was sitting near a fire on a beach.

It was night and looked like it was about to rain.

I could feel...

Escaping Embers & Crackling Fire

Humming Waves & Cricket Noise

Approaching Storm & Thundering Clouds

Fading Stars & Cool breezes

It was all pleasant & beautiful...

I stood up and started walking, with a torch.

I turned back and could see my footprints.

They were eventually erased by the waves.

I was walking towards a dark forest.

I could see monkeys restlessly shrieking,

Even in the stormy and dark night.

What could be more restless than these?

Probably my mind, because it's restless even when I`m asleep.

I found a large cave and entered it.

It started raining heavily just after that.

There were all sorts of scrambled pictures & fuzzy stories,

Carved onto the wall of that cave.

Some of those felt familiar.

Some of those were old & fading away.

I thought that the cave can only endure ones that are deeply carved.

Just like my memories that are strongly etched into my heart.

I suddenly heard a sound, I looked around.

I felt something hit my ankle.

With the help of the torch, I tried to see what it was.

It was a snake, and I realized, It bit me.

I just stood there shocked. I gradually collapsed.

But I didn't feel any pain. Instead, I felt high and I realized couldn't move.

I was completely immersed in that state.

Surprisingly I wanted it to last for some more time.

I was becoming sleepy and about to go unconscious.

In those moments I thought why didn't I do anything after I got bit.

Maybe I was stumped out by an altered state so much, I was ignorant.

Just like one sinking in desire and realizing it only at the very end.

Suddenly I felt... nothing.

It was like I was... dead.

I could not see, hear or feel anything.

Where am I? What I have become? What I was before this?

Then there was a light & I understood I was that light.

In that light I realized. I was previously just a Walking Dust.

And now I'm just dust.

And there is no need to walk again If I understood this.

And then I really woke up... from my dream. It all was just a dream.

Was it a nightmare or a good dream? I wondered!.

And it was neither of them.

I realized It was just a glance of truth.

I'm just Walking Dust, awake or in a dream.

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Midnight Musings - Where You Reign Inside

It’s just neurons, transmitters, and DNA’s old code Yet the feeling arrives like a spell, like alchemy unfolding. In the day, a thought of you drifts in And my mind scatters like butterflies in a sunlit garden. At night, it returns soft, glowing And the fireflies of memory rise, comforting me. I don’t know anymore if I love you or the echo I’ve made of you Either way, no other feeling fits anymore. I dissolve in thoughts of you and feel myself disappear But then I realize I’m flying in the ocean of madness. Longing follows me everywhere I go Even shadows carry the shape of dreams that can never be true. Like tides pulled by the moon’s silent pull, my heart rises and falls with your nearness or your silence. The veena hums even though I lack the skill, like a pearl that shines far beneath, never fading, never mine. I’m still searching for a place inside me untouched by you but my heart has become your kingdom, where you reign as Queen .

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